PLEDGE

I am 26 weeks pregnant with a 3 year hyper active child running around in the house. When did life become so difficult and complicated? It was supposed to be the best period of my life..what happened? When did i stop enjoying it? When did i become like others?
I think i know what happened....others happened..their expectations,,,I started judging myself with their benchmark.
Why do i seek approval from these others? Who r these others? Others are never their when I need them, they r never their when my baby needed them. When did others start ruling my life, deciding what to do and telling me how I am not worthy of any good thing in life...when??? and most importantly when did I start paying attention to them? When did they become so important? Why did they become so important?
More i think about it, more i realise its my fault I have let these forces inside my mind and hence my life....I was far more independent and confident in my decisions as an individual, but as a parent i decided to follow norms preset by otherss..and slowly i started doubting myself as an individual also.Why?
Why did i judge myself on these stupid norms.
"Right now i refuse to follow these norms and liberate myself"
-I will from this moment onwards take more informed and liberate decisions for each and every aspect of my life.
-I will not care what anyone thinks of me in the world as long as I can meet my eye
-I will first think of myself and my child before anyone, and if i have time and energy left i will waste/spend it on anyone else.
-I will let others judge me for being the most selfish person on earth and not get affected by it
-Today I take a pledge to "BE ME AND HAPPY"